Their Pleasure

Her heart aching

Behind the wall

She had created

To protect herself

From endless heartbreak

Everytime she gave

Away her heart

In the end broke

She was never

Enough for anyone

Everytime she was used

For their pleasure

Scarred

She’s scarred

She resembles

Shards of glass

Push and pulled

By multiple men

Tortured by their

So called love

Pressured to stay

Tortured by their

Fake so called love

Bruises she hides

Upon her heart

She keeps her

Sorrows hidden

Inside

Shades of Greys

She is fading

Fading away

Into the greys

Shades of greys

She’s in the fog

No way of

Getting out

She’s stuck

Forever lost

Lost in

The dark

I thought I knew you — poetry

I thought I knew who you were

I was more than wrong

I never knew you.. really

I’m trying to stay strong

But it is harder than I thought

I believed you were the one

The one that would show me

What true love was

Instead you left me in shackles

You’re asking me what’s the matter

I know I could do better

Without your type of love

You are never going to give

Up the drugs

And give me your all

Knowing you won’t

Stay sober for me

I deserve to be loved

Without all the abuse

All the words you said

Could never be undone

Poetry Video — Without You ( with Words )

without you
i feel torn
without you
i feel broke
without you
i only mourn
without you
im scarred
split into
two
shattered
into pieces
all over
the floor
feeling tortured
without your
embrace
i truly
miss staring
at your face
like i used to
when you fell
asleep
believing
you didn’t have
any flaws
i wish
back then
i engaged
more into
you
i wish
i could grasp
back onto you
but i have
to accept
that we
need to
keep our
distance
when it
tears me apart
i lay around
feeling hurt
i wish
i didn’t have
to depart
i wish we could
go back and time
and press restart
but there
isn’t a way
to go back
in time
i have to
abide
and stay
away from
your side
i wish i didn’t
start that fight
that crumbled
everything we built
that night
i wish i
didn’t wake up
i wish i
stayed asleep
and woke
to the sunshine
i got into deep
i couldn’t stop
now here i am
accepting i need help
when all my life
i knew i did
but didn’t understand
why
but my head
has always been
in a clog
im sorry i
left you
in the fog
i hope
one day
we could hold
hands
once again
even if we
have to go through
the pain
of being away
for so long
i know
we could be
perfect together
if we stayed
away from the drugs.

Poetry – Living in Nature

Life… we live in nature… death… depending how you treat nature… you could rest within the clouds… or stuck in the ground… urging a way out…they lose all their energy from the sun and moon .. souls with no light… forever dim … unless they can fight their way in… our souls need the light the sun and moon make… our inner selves never fake… take a walk on a path… where the rays can feel your beating heart… before you sleep take a step out of your door and look at the stars that shine above…. let them feel like they are loved…

Poetry – Outcast

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living as an outcast
in the bitter cold
fully exposed
with no one to hold
i was born alone
i had to grow
with no one around
inside i’m shattered
knowing i
never mattered
hear me cry
as i pray for a home
someone to take me in
to be known
to be embraced
for who i am

Poem – Leaving You

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Our love faded away
As days passed by
I wish it stayed
I don’t understand why
It had to be this way
When I gave you my hand
My head in disarray
As I leave you behind

Micro Poetry- Days I Felt Alright

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Trying to remember the days when I felt alright

It was before we met and I gave you my life

Although when he first touched I thought you were only mine

I believed you were flawless until I figured out your lies

Sad Poetry – Let Me Fall

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Let me fall to the cold ground

Let me make my final sound

Let me drain onto the floor

I don’t want to live like this any more…