Poem – Death at Twenty-Three


she’s feeling faint
becoming pale
her mind diminishing
her skin frail

losing her hair
as she’s lying there
without a care
all she does is stare

it was tough
to watch her fade
on her last days
she decayed drastically

it was hard
to leave her side
once they announced
her final breath

i couldn’t believe
just at the age of twenty-three
my friend could be
taken away from me
so easily


Poetry – Final Prayer

Her eyes filled with endless tears

As she laid on the cold bare floor

Wondering why God gave her this life

Wishing she didn’t  exist

Hearing the door open again

Waiting for her next beating

She has to stay mute

Although in her mind she’s screaming

Waiting for her last night

She knows she can’t continue this fight

Her skin feels so fragile

As she puts on her pajamas

She prays to God one last time

Begging him for this to end

She curls up on the cold surface

Closes her sodden eyes

God realizes he made a mistake

And granted her final prayer

She flew with the angels

A minute past midnight

When she met God

He tells her he is sorry

He has no control over

All the evil in the World

Poem – Escape


she took
another pill
believing this
time maybe she
will feel
something afterwards
she lies down
on the kitchen floor
drowning in her
hoping tomorrow
she will be
in a better place
she falls asleep
to dream about
what her life
would be like
if she felt
always waking
up to wanting
another escape
wondering if
she will ever
be happy
with herself.

Poetry – Alone Again


she forgot
what it
was like
to feel
alone again
trying to
get away
from her pain
her thoughts
turn grey
like the
night clouds
controlling her
without remorse
leaving her
feeling drained
she believes
she has turned
completely insane
all she sees
when she
looks in
the mirror
is a reflection
of a girl
who used to have
she lost the
need to be
loved by
instead she
is hanging
on by a thread
wishing she
could dream again.

Poem – Servant


your not what
i expected
you were in
when i met you
how did i miss
something so
it was right
in front of my eyes
i didn’t see a monster
you had me
under a spell
i could not tell
You were evil then
we married
in your backyard
within one night
i realized i was
in trouble
as you liked to
watch me bleed
as you cut me
and tied me up
i was your servant
not your wife
treating me with
no respect
wishing i could
run and hide
but he has me
hidden inside
of his basement.

Dark Ambient Music & Poetry – Running Away

She’s running away

From it all

This time

She knows

She won’t come back

To the same pain

That haunts her there

She will stay

Away forever

From the hate

They live by

She wishes

It didn’t have

To be this way

To leave her

Only family

But she would

Rather be alone

Than to accept

Their rules

In the cult

They created

Hurting lives

Every day like

Theirs don’t matter

She fears

They may find her

But she knows

She has to be

Braver this time

Stronger this time

Smarter and wiser

This time

Running away

From everything

From her past

Still living

With mistakes

That linger within

Her young head

But she knows

If she stayed

She would have

Ended up dead

They never liked

A rebel

A girl with

Different dreams

It seems

Like this is

The only way

She will survive

By running away

From them

This Horrible Place – Poetry


Little girl
Crying again
Wishing her pain
Would finally end
Hiding under her bed
With her baby blanket
Wishing she were dead
Instead of him
Coming for more
She told him she
Was too sore
For another beating
No point in fighting
It only gets worse
Curse word after
Curse word coming
From his mouth
She feels sickened inside
Never understanding why
She was the one
He chosen to torture
She goes to sleep
Bleeding everynight
Her mother a drug addict
Working the corners
To make a little cash
Only to get home
To be called a whore
Loud enough for her
To wake up
Just to hear more beating
But this time it
Was her mother
Taking the torture
He loved to afflict pain
On both of them
As if they were his
Punching bags
Being used everyday
Just wishing for
The day someone comes
And takes her away
From this horrible place


Poetry Video- About A Girl


Lost girl
All alone
Without a
Place to
Feel safe
She walks
The streets
No respect
For herself
No longer
A human
A disgrace
To her race
An immoral
Piece of garbage
She’s told
To her face
She wishes
She can change
Feeling it’s
Too late
The past
Can’t be undone
She will always
Be the girl
Who wandered
The streets
She falls
To her knees
Begs for
With tears
In her eyes
Hoping for
A different