Poem – Fear of Falling

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I could get lost in your eyes

if you let me

but i fear

i might

get out of control

and want more of you

i know i am not ready

although

you drive me crazy

i wish

i could give you

my heart

but i have been

torn apart

and now

i am afraid to

get broken again

i don’t know

if i could

handle

that kind of torture

once more.

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Poetry – Final Prayer

Her eyes filled with endless tears

As she laid on the cold bare floor

Wondering why God gave her this life

Wishing she didn’t  exist

Hearing the door open again

Waiting for her next beating

She has to stay mute

Although in her mind she’s screaming

Waiting for her last night

She knows she can’t continue this fight

Her skin feels so fragile

As she puts on her pajamas

She prays to God one last time

Begging him for this to end

She curls up on the cold surface

Closes her sodden eyes

God realizes he made a mistake

And granted her final prayer

She flew with the angels

A minute past midnight

When she met God

He tells her he is sorry

He has no control over

All the evil in the World

Poem About A Crush – Shy Girl – Poetry Video with Music

Reminding myself to breathe

As you walk by me

Do I dare to speak

Or keep silent?

It is hard to decide

What choice I will make

As you are getting closer

I panic

I don’t say a word

Regrets rush through my mind

Within seconds

I could have

Told you how I was feeling

Afraid of rejection

I live in this constant fear

Wondering when I will let you in my life

Tired of being shy

I just want to tell you

How I feel

Without any worries…

Poetry – Two Worlds Apart

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We’re two worlds apart
If we collide into each other
We may not connect like
I’d hope we would
We might explode instead
So I stay in denial
I pretend I don’t need you
But I am tearing up inside
Wishing I was brave enough
To look into your eyes
As you walk by
But my anxiety fills my head

Long Haiku – Difficult To Love

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She remembers when
She first laid her eyes on his
That was the moment-
She let herself fall
Hoping he was worth her time
Minutes are precious-
She thought to herself
A broken heart can be healed
If she gave a chance-
At a new romance
Passion can cure anything
If you let it in-
It was hard for her
To accept he wanted her
For eternity-
She was the type to
Make them want to run away
She needed to hide-
All of her feelings
They always broke up with her
She was hard to love-
She liked it that way
She enjoyed the pain they gave
As they walked away-
Never knowing why
She had to be difficult
When it came to love-

Poetry – Walked Away

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I saw you walk away from us

Without looking back

I thought to myself

How could he do that

I thought we were a family

Why didn’t he stay

I didn’t understand

Why it had to be that way

I was left confused

I thought, was I forgotten?

What did I do wrong

To make him want to depart?

It was hard to stay strong

I just couldn’t believe

This was happening

His face started to fade

It was challenging

To not have him there

I felt like he no longer

Even cared for me

Tears were rolling

Down my eyes constantly

Every night, wishing I

Had an answer why

It had to be this way

Why I was abandoned

Left without his love

Leaving me saddened?

Our Love Is Gone – Poetry Video

He told me he loved me

Under the rain

When he spoke my name

I didn’t feel any pain

Like I used to

When I was alone

Surrounded in silence

It drove me insane…

So glad that I met him

Before it was too late

I honestly…

Was getting sick of breathing

Before he came into my life…

Now after years together

He tells me he is leaving me…

As if it is so easy

Just to walk away

From what he called love

Supposedly

I feel our love was a lie

Since he abandoned me

I wish I wasn’t blinded

By the passion he gave

I realize

I was just used

I was just a mistake

He said he wasted days

Of not telling me the truth

That this was the only way

And I have to accept

That we are no longer together

And that he regrets

He didn’t tell me sooner

He said he was sorry

That he hurried to fast

Into something he knew

Would never last

I was in shock

With the words he said

It’s hard to believe

I spent years with him

To find out he always had a plan

To leave me eventually

Painfully…

I try to understand

But it is hard

I feel like I will never be enough

For anyone to love

My heart shattered

It’s hard to breathe

I don’t want to go on

Feeling this broken

Everyone tells me to forget

But it seems impossible

I miss him too much

It sucks, I’m not enough

Growing weaker without him

I know I seem pathetic

But I gave him my all

When I decided to fall

For his sweet taste

From his lips

I will always miss

The nights we had

I still ache inside

Wishing we could still collide

Back into each other’s arms

Only in my dreams

I can have him now

It is hard to admit

I was never enough

For him to commit

I have no choice

But to continue life

Without his perfect face.

Goodbye My Friend

goodbyefriend

Goodbye my friend

The one who held hands

With me down the river

Watching the stream pick up

From the windy breeze

We separated as teens

Wishing we could have been

Together a little longer

Today I am stronger

But I  still miss you

Like no other

I still ask God, why her?

Why not me instead?

She had big plans to go places

To meet so many faces

I was just bland with

No plans

So why God,

Why did you take her instead?