No Voice – Poetry

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i have to make a choice
but i feel i no longer
even have a voice
to spill the feelings
i have deep inside
it is even hard
to cry
like i lost
the will to spill
any type of emotion
i toss and turn
in my bed all night
wishing i didn’t
have this stress
surrounding in my head
i can’t rest
these endless thoughts
are tearing apart
my weak mind
i ask myself why
i even need to choose
i need to stop
being pulled
back and forth
i don’t know
how much more i
can take
just wishing
everything around me
just turned blank.

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Poem – End My Life

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What do I do in a time like this
All I wish is for it to end
Hard to pretend
I am going insane
Within my head
Feeling drained
I would rather be dead
Than to continue
This endless pain
Feeling used
What do I do
In a time like this
Waiting for the night
I decide to end my life
So I can stop
All the thoughts
I am forever drowning in

Poem – Death at Twenty-Three

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she’s feeling faint
becoming pale
her mind diminishing
her skin frail

losing her hair
as she’s lying there
without a care
all she does is stare

it was tough
to watch her fade
on her last days
she decayed drastically

it was hard
to leave her side
once they announced
her final breath

i couldn’t believe
just at the age of twenty-three
my friend could be
taken away from me
so easily

Poetry – Final Prayer

Her eyes filled with endless tears

As she laid on the cold bare floor

Wondering why God gave her this life

Wishing she didn’t  exist

Hearing the door open again

Waiting for her next beating

She has to stay mute

Although in her mind she’s screaming

Waiting for her last night

She knows she can’t continue this fight

Her skin feels so fragile

As she puts on her pajamas

She prays to God one last time

Begging him for this to end

She curls up on the cold surface

Closes her sodden eyes

God realizes he made a mistake

And granted her final prayer

She flew with the angels

A minute past midnight

When she met God

He tells her he is sorry

He has no control over

All the evil in the World

Goodbye My Friend

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Goodbye my friend

The one who held hands

With me down the river

Watching the stream pick up

From the windy breeze

We separated as teens

Wishing we could have been

Together a little longer

Today I am stronger

But I  still miss you

Like no other

I still ask God, why her?

Why not me instead?

She had big plans to go places

To meet so many faces

I was just bland with

No plans

So why God,

Why did you take her instead?

 

 

Poem- Unknown Darkness

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my heart aches

i can feel

it beating faster

than usual

i hate this feeling

of being so broken

i am kneeling

praying someday

i will see you again

but i know it wont be

until i fade away

into the unknown darkness

Micro Poetry – Cursed

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I felt I had immortality
When I was young
Not realizing back then
All the fatality
That exists in the world
We are all cursed
By an upcoming death
That we have no control over
Just waiting for our final rest.

Poem – Drowning

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Drowning in an endless ocean of tears

Wishing I could have you near

But you can’t hear my cries

Your no longer alive

Wishing I had told you

How I felt

Long time ago

When I first felt butterflies

As you walked by

Now all I can do is cry

Surrounded in a World

Of regrets

Wishing I could

See you again one last time

But I know it

Won’t happen

A deep emptiness

Lingers within me

Memories of your face

Are fading

I  hope I get another chance

In my next lifetime

To meet you again

And have the courage

To tell you

How I feel.