Sad Poetry by Mandy Williams…
living as an outcast
in the bitter cold
fully exposed
with no one to hold
i was born alone
i had to grow
with no one around
inside i’m shattered
knowing i
never mattered
hear me cry
as i pray for a home
someone to take me in
to be known
to be embraced
for who i am
She stared in the eyes of her father
As he had a hold of her
She imagines tears rolling down
From her eyes but
She never let’s him see her real feelings
She keeps all of her emotions inside
Afraid of what he will do
If she didn’t accept his needs
She wished she could fall to her knees
And beg and plead for him to stop
Making her bleed nightly
Told her to stay silent
And keep what he did a secret
He repeated the same lines
That no one would even believe her
If she were to tell anyone
They’d believe it was all lies
Scaring her to keep quiet
She was afraid of being shamed
But she was tired of all the pain
Before he got a hold of her again
She decides to take her life
With the only weapon she could find
A newly sharpened kitchen knife
When he came in for his nightly routine
He found her bleeding all over her sheets
He screamed and called for an ambulance
But it was too late
She was finally free
From the torture
She had to take from the man
Who was supposed to love her
Her spirit flew away
Because she knew she couldn’t stay
In a life she never wanted.
Her eyes filled with endless tears
As she laid on the cold bare floor
Wondering why God gave her this life
Wishing she didn’t exist
Hearing the door open again
Waiting for her next beating
She has to stay mute
Although in her mind she’s screaming
Waiting for her last night
She knows she can’t continue this fight
Her skin feels so fragile
As she puts on her pajamas
She prays to God one last time
Begging him for this to end
She curls up on the cold surface
Closes her sodden eyes
God realizes he made a mistake
And granted her final prayer
She flew with the angels
A minute past midnight
When she met God
He tells her he is sorry
He has no control over
All the evil in the World
I saw you walk away from us
Without looking back
I thought to myself
How could he do that
I thought we were a family
Why didn’t he stay
I didn’t understand
Why it had to be that way
I was left confused
I thought, was I forgotten?
What did I do wrong
To make him want to depart?
It was hard to stay strong
I just couldn’t believe
This was happening
His face started to fade
It was challenging
To not have him there
I felt like he no longer
Even cared for me
Tears were rolling
Down my eyes constantly
Every night, wishing I
Had an answer why
It had to be this way
Why I was abandoned
Left without his love
Leaving me saddened?
i remember when my
friend and i
would have these
conversations about life
one by one
we were
always together
walking down our road
waiting for the world
to unfold
as we shared all
our thoughts with
one another
i remember those
easy days
playing truth or dare
every weekend
without a care
about what else
was out there
we didn’t discuss
about the evil
that lurked around us
we thought that
everything was alright
we were naive back then
it felt as if that was
the only time i
could take a full breath
without losing my mind
nowadays i know of
all the pain
that spreads
all around us
there is no stopping
the evil in this world
we are still waiting
for the day
we can all hold hands
and pray for a new
beginning where we
all co-exist with each other.
I felt I had immortality
When I was young
Not realizing back then
All the fatality
That exists in the world
We are all cursed
By an upcoming death
That we have no control over
Just waiting for our final rest.
Sweet dreams
He whispered
In my ear
Every night
Until one day
He left me
My daddy
How could you
Just forget
The love you
Had for me?
I can’t sleep
Well without
The words
You used to
Speak to me
Every night before
I slept…
I felt lost
When you
Walked out
The door
Thinking what
I have done so
Wrong to cause
Such a tragedy?
I used to watch
Out my window
Hoping for you
To come back
To me
But you never did
Growing up I realize
Maybe I was not
Worth your time
In the first place
And I am sorry
I ever existed
Wishing I could
Turn back time
And not waste
So much energy
In hoping you
Would come
Back to me
My daddy
I once thought
You were my
Everything
But you left
Me with nothing
Making me believe
From then on
I’m not worth
Anything
To anyone
I feel my life
Could have been
A little different
If you weren’t
So selfish.
Little girl
Crying again
Wishing her pain
Would finally end
Shivering
Hiding under her bed
With her baby blanket
Wishing she were dead
Instead of him
Coming for more
She told him she
Was too sore
For another beating
No point in fighting
It only gets worse
Curse word after
Curse word coming
From his mouth
She feels sickened inside
Never understanding why
She was the one
He chosen to torture
She goes to sleep
Bleeding everynight
Her mother a drug addict
Working the corners
To make a little cash
Only to get home
To be called a whore
Loud enough for her
To wake up
Just to hear more beating
But this time it
Was her mother
Taking the torture
He loved to afflict pain
On both of them
As if they were his
Punching bags
Being used everyday
Just wishing for
The day someone comes
And takes her away
From this horrible place
The shades in the sky
Remind me of the days
When we used to play
Under the trees together
Where we stayed hidden
From the rest of reality
Just you and I
Playing until dark
Surrounded in purple hues
With only you
Drawing with chalk
On the sidewalk
Wishing it would never rain
Ever again
So our memories
Will never be erased
Young girl
Why are you
Walking alone
There’s danger
Everywhere you go
In this World
Please be careful
Don’t trust
Just anyone
Follow your
Instincts
As you
Grow old.
Poems by Mandy 