Too intense
These feelings
I tend to hide
All the regrets
Boiling inside
My mind
Needs healing
Hard to express
What I confined
I keep concealing
And suppress
I stay buried
Instead of revealing
Hard to confess
The thoughts
I carried
I can not undress
These emotions
I stay withdrawn
Forever I’m frozen
Feeling as if I don’t exist
Ignored like the dirt
Brushed under the rug
That you left and forgot
Feeling dark and neurotic
Can’t control my thoughts
Missing our late night talks
And our morning walks
But your love for me ended
We don’t speak to another
You look right through my eyes
Leaving me feeling paralyzed
Demented without your touch
You were all I ever wanted
My skin flushed with anger
Ever since you departed
Sleepless nights and uneaten dinner
Lying around in the darkness
Drinking more and more liquor
Feeling more and more heartless
I become utterly useless
I forget how to breathe
I begin to vanish
My heart turns bleak
My heart broke in pieces
As I watched him
Passionately kiss her
I was not what he needed
I used to be his only
The one he cuddled at night
But things changed suddenly
We always had to fight
Gone for hours
He left me behind
Our relationship soured
He became more unkind
His words were negative
His touch turned cold
I was delicate
Easy to break and control
He knew this so he kept
Pushing and pulling me in
It was hard to accept
He was touching her skin
I tried to run away
But he tied me down
Threatened to slay
If I attempted to leave town
Now I sit alone in bed
Scared what will happen next
Hanging on a thread
I am his unloved object.
Another day
Where I need
To take time
To breathe deep
Hard to keep
These feelings
I have had
To hide
I take a drive
Deciding if
I might
Speak my mind
The second
I see you
I freeze
And stay mute
I pollute
My mind
With negative
Thoughts again
Hard to explain
These feelings
I have for you
If you only knew.
She abused
The needle
Always craved
A fix
It never
Took away
Her inner pain.
